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Five Minute Friday: Enough
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did she eat enough?
did she play enough?
did i love enough?
did i discipline enough?
did i teach enough?
did i listen enough?
sometimes i think children should come with checklists of their every need so that at the end of the day i can know that i accomplished everything she needs to become a wonderful adult. i think though that sometimes i need to just pull her into my lap and love on her and let that be enough.
i worry sometimes that i am not enough for her. that my shortcomings will take over and play out in her life and i don't want that. of course, i also worry that sometimes it is all too much - especially when i feel the need to compare myself to every blog i read and wonder how my family will fit in to all of this and what my version of these things will look like. i see their pretty pinterest crafts but i forget that they probably have the hour meltdown before the ten minute craft project in their worlds too.
at the end of the day i get a kiss and a hug when i tuck her into bed and she calls out
"i love you mom"
the rest of it fades away and it is enough.
Stop.
This is so beautiful Elizabeth! I could feel every word. I often feel the same way myself. But be encouraged! You are exactly what your little one needs. You are! Thanks for being so transparent and sharing your heart!
ReplyDeleteI'm right there with you girl! Know that God has grace for when you don't get it just right! He fills in the gaps perfectly and uses us even in the midst of our weaknesses!
ReplyDeleteMary Beth
Awwww . . . beautiful! I so know that mama heart and share it with you!
ReplyDeleteBeautifully written. Sometimes it's hard with the internet making it so easy to compare our less-than-perfect lives and families with others so much more together. You're right, we need to remember that what we see online is often just a carefully crafted photo or story. It's true, it's just not the whole story or picture. God does see to it we have enough of everything we need. Thanks for sharing.
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