Saturday, May 10, 2014



tear down walls, one brick at a time.

wipe tears.

create a safe place.

pray for protection of angels.

cry out to Jesus.

bind up hearts.

bandage up boo boos.

love fiercely.

protect honestly.

nourish bodies and souls.





speak truth and life.

offer advice.

try not to hide.

but I also fail.  and I'm not perfect.  and I don't want to ever pretend to be.  it is of no value to anyone around me if I can't own my shortcomings and point to Jesus even through those.  all of the list above is only by His grace and His power.  On my own, I am still just a kid who is trying to figure things out.  in His power there is hope and redemption and grace and justice and forgiveness and healing.

how great is it that I am nothing on my own.  oh what He can do with this lump of clay.  mold me and make me God, continue to create and refine me.  give me wisdom for when everything hurts and I don't know how to put people myself back together.  I will seek and find rest in You.

Saturday, May 3, 2014

The things I'm not doing

I think on this season of life it is sometimes hard to celebrate accomplishments because of that looming feeling of things not being completed. I feel like the list of things I want to do but am not accomplishing is enormous.

I love to work with teen girls, but that is not something I can fit into my schedule. Reading, studying and pondering seem to take a back seat to potty training and diaper changing. I am still working on an updated chore chart for myself....roughly 3 weeks after I started the process. Meal planning just scares me, but something has to be done.

I want to think and grow and inspire and encourage and I know that in some ways just being real about how things are right now is the best way to do that, but oh I long for more. I want to plan homeschool and teach Sunday school well and so I will focus on my home life first.  But I want to be able to say yes to heading up the church rummage sale or helping with the other church ladies projects and be able to just follow through on those things.

I am happy with where I am. I am happy with my little ones and would not exchange this season for a season of freedom without them, but the struggle to balance it all out is a skill I have yet to master.

Saturday, April 26, 2014

What My Days Look Like

i know we have a lot to catch up on.  we'll get there. right now i thought i'd just give you a taste of what my normal day looks like.

8am - Wake up and shower.  I may be up with the boys at this point but I try to leave them in their cribs until I am out of the shower.  (And yes, cribs - we got to borrow one from a friend, so thankful!).

8:30am - Get boys dressed and fed.  Abi dressed maybe.  Think about breakfast.

9am - Breakfast

10am-12pm - House chores, errands, counseling, park fun, coloring, games, whatever.  This is our anything goes time slot.

12:30pm - Lunch for all the kiddos, tv show for the girls


1pm-3pm - I work from home, clean, do projects I can't do with kids...ya know, those things.  I wish this were a longer window ONLY because I always feel like I'm playing catch up.  Ah well, it's a season.

3pm - Homeschool...which consists of learning letter names and sounds right now although the kid already knows most of them.  We are going to start Learn to Read in 100 Easy Lessons soon!

3:30pm-5:30pm - House chores, outside time, whatever.  This is a flexible window but usually at home because I don't wake kids up from naps so there is little predictability. Feed the boys somewhere in here.

5:30pm - Start thinking about dinner, get kids cleaning up

6:30pm - Family dinner and clean up

7:30pm - Watch a bed time show with the girls, feed the boys and get everyone ready for bed.

8pm - Everyone in bed, story with the girls.

At this point my days start to look different :)
Monday and Tuesday I work from 8-10pm from home
Wednesday is date night!
Thursday is Bible study at our house
Friday I get some time out of the house starting around 7
Saturday and Sunday are family days!

So there, that's my normal life...with my crazy family :)

Wednesday, April 23, 2014

We are still alive.

Ya'll, I haven't posted because well...

i'm a mom.

i have twin 6 month olds...and a 2 year old...and a 4 year old...

i homeschool...kinda...

i teach sunday school...

i mentor and fellowship and community with people...

i have 3 extra people living in my house (making it a total of 9)...

and i have a ton of ministry, life and other demands that take up my time and attention.

But ya know what, i have stuff to say.  i am woman, hear me roar!  ok, maybe i won't roar.  i want to post again.  i want to use this as a place to record these memories, because never ever in my life will i get to relive these days.  i want to remember them.  i want to look back and think, i did THAT.  ya know?  you get it, right?

so here is my goal.  i'm going to go schedule posts for the next four fridays (to go live on saturday morning).  hopefully by the time they go live it won't be a sad reminder that i didn't follow through...ha ha, i'm hoping the pre-scheduled posts will help my motivation!

i'm also thinking about moving to a new blog.  i think i want a fresh start where i don't feel like i need to go back and re-read every post before i can spread the word.  we'll see.  i'll keep you posted :)

Friday, December 6, 2013

Coming Out of Survival Mode

We are slowly but surely returning to "normal" life around here.  Normal being relative with four kids and two college students that live with us.  :)  Here is what we have been up to...

We are getting more into a routine with our days.  Of course, I say that heading into the holiday season where everything is a little nutty.  Last week was Thanksgiving, this week we had two days of doctor appointments.  Usually our days "start" at 9am with breakfast at the table with Daddy.  Then he goes to work and the girls get dressed.  We either do school now or after naps, more on that in a minute.  Then we play and sing and dance.  Lunch is at 12pm and naps at 1pm.  After naps we either do school if we didn't do it earlier or color/draw/create for awhile.  I get dinner going.  The girls eat around 5pm.  We all eat together if Daddy is home, otherwise they eat early and I eat later at 7:30ish with him when he gets home from work.  Then we have some family time and it is off to bed for the girls.  The boys usually fall asleep around 10 for the night - give or take an hour.

School is around 30 minutes per day.  I am not a great planner (or a great crafter) so we are following the guidelines at and doing "Getting Ready 1" which features one letter per week.  There are also review weeks with colors and I believe numbers.  Grace has been enjoying it and is currently singing "B is a consonant, a letter in the alphabet".  Abi has been doing it with us but I care less if she gets it all :) 

I have also been meal planning and cooking dinner 3-4 times a week.  One of the other nights we usually go out and the others we do leftovers.  It has been going pretty well.  I've had a couple "eh, we don't need to make that again" nights but for the most part the dishes have been good.  My husband is an awesome cook so I prefer to leave the cooking to him, but he likes a hot dinner after working all day.  I guess he has a point :)  It's been fun and I think with practice I'll do better at it. 

My goals are to starting doing Thankful Thursdays again and also do a week in review of what we're doing, cooking, learning, etc.  We shall see!  I have big goals but that doesn't always mean they work out.

Hope life is treating you well!