It is 11:26pm and my copy machine is running, my printer is printing and my brain is begging to be turned off. It's been a long day. My kids didn't sleep well last night, didn't nap well today and well, the saying should go when kiddos ain't happy, ain't nobody happy.
I have a job that requires my time and attention. I love this job and would like to keep it :) BUT sometimes, sometimes getting it all done requires me to walk away from my computer/phone/copy machine and give that two year old the attention she so desperately wants from me. That HAS to be ok. I guard my moments pretty fiercely. I'm not a huge fan of interruptions or the idea of missing nap times (read: work time for mom). BUT I was reminded today while I enjoyed the sunshine at the park with a dear friend who I desperately needed to catch up with - sometimes that loose hold creates the environment for it all to come together rather than me trying to force a square peg in a round hole ALL.DAY.LONG.
At the end of the day. Holding my baby and kissing boo-boos is so fleeting and so temporary that I know down the road I will regret not holding on tighter to those moments. My kid knows she is loved, but I want to have the peace at the end of the day that although I may have failed in my quest for perfect parenting, I know that I showed love to my little girls.